Love is an Invitation

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Put action behind those words! Did you know when you tell someone you love them it is a call to action? Yep, it certainly is. Yes, love is felt in the heart but when not given expression it really has nowhere to go. Love is a river that flows from the heart to the subject of its desire. It makes no difference who it is directed toward. Your love might be for a friend, a child, a romantic partner, a spouse, a family member, or even an animal.

It’s amazing to me that often we give our animals more of our actions than people. Not that our pets and animals are not deserving but people need affection too! We need support, conversation, affection, companionship, laughter, sharing tears, and more. If it is too much to handle then the subject of our love is not love at all. Love brings a desire to be an active participant in someone’s life. I don’t believe there are degrees of love, just love. Love pretty much stands on its own and your actions will speak volumes as to what your true feelings are, not only to you but to those you claim to love.

On a more grand scale, if your deepest desire is love for humanity then “charity” will be the action you display. Charitable acts of love are the highest acts we can ever display in this world. If it is a relationship love then presence, support, and affection are what we display. You can always tell where your greatest loves are by the river of life and action toward them. Just follow the river and you will see what your true heart will reveal to you!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry

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Usui Reiki Video Classes for Certification or Enrichment Have Begun!

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Whether you are seeking Usui Reiki for self-healing, certification, or enrichment you will receive very thorough teaching from my courses on Patreon! I have begun with general energy center (chakra) teaching and balancing in the first videos. My next videos will contain Usui Reiki symbols, ethics, continued Reiki prayer, self-healing, energy healing for others, distance healing, and more. Certification is through the International Association of Reiki Professionals.

You will have access to me in the comment sections below each video to ask or comment on whatever you desire. Attunements are conducted via zoom and by distance and will be just as powerful as if in person. Locally, they can be performed in person! You can begin your own Reiki practice after your attunements and certification or you can simply offer Reiki to those you know or give healing balancing energy to yourself!

Whatever the reason you feel you are drawn to Reiki healing it is for a purpose. Everything comes to us in divine timing. My Patreon account is subscribed at only at $11 per month and can be canceled at any time. You might want to stick around for more though! I have a lot of continued content planned! Stick with me! You will continue to learn and grow.

You can become my Patreon subscriber at this link:

https://www.patreon.com/jeninemarie

There is also a 16-video course for women on attracting a love relationship. All content is available to everyone. The videos are labeled so they will be easy for you to find! I hope to see you there!

Loving you from here,

Jenine Marie

JenineMarie.com

Death of a Child and Parental Heart Failure from Stressful Grief

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The intense grief for a mother who has had to endure the passing of her child or children is one of the hardest roads to walk in human existence. I have been told over and over again; the extent to which we grieve correlates to the extent we have loved. If this is true, my love has been deep, wide, and right to the soul. As mothers, we work on protecting our children every day of our lives, and when they leave our world it feels like the biggest betrayal of life ever. I was told once by an army lieutenant whose mother lost her older child that there is nothing more sad and daunting than the cry of a grieving mother. I have to agree. I feel sad for those who have had to hear me grieve the loss of my two children. It is not for the weak, that’s for sure.

Unfortunately, the grieving process we read about in books does not often talk about physical issues the grief of a child can bring, such as heart failure. It makes sense to me because it is the greatest heartache I think I have ever felt in my life. According to the National Library of Medicine in Bethesda, MD, a grieving parent has at least a 35% higher risk of developing heart failure than non-grieving parents due to the stress of the event. This statistic in and of itself shows the care that must be given to a grieving mother, especially during the first year or so after the passing of her child. The grief will never fully go away but will settle into a part of everyday existence.

Good medical care, a lot of loving support, and caring counselors are what truly help during grief cycles. Also, meditative methods, time alone to process the loss and those who understand are also helpful. One of the hardest parts of grief is feeling so misunderstood only second to the loss itself. Life goes on without us as mothers while our hearts truly break. I have always believed our emotional and spiritual state will eventually be spoken to us through our physical bodies as they reflect our state of being. It only goes to show the breaking of our emotional hearts, the feeling of life betrayal, and the hardship of not having our loved one can eventually break our physical hearts to the point of heart failure. Our hearts speak out, “Life has failed me so now I am failing.”

It’s a difficult cross to bear as life seems to dish out events that feel very unfair. Can we, as grieving mothers, ever overcome the trauma? Of course, we can. Hopefully, we can overcome trauma before irreversible heart failure happens from the intensity of loss and grief of the loved one we have carried all of our lives. We will never stop carrying them, that is for sure.

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry

JenineMarie.com

**Wei D, Li J, Janszky I, Chen H, Fang F, Ljung R, László KD. Death of a child and the risk of heart failure: a population-based cohort study from Denmark and Sweden. Eur J Heart Fail. 2022 Jan;24(1):181-189. doi: 10.1002/ejhf.2372. Epub 2021 Nov 16. PMID: 34693593.

It Takes Two to Create a Relationship

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I’m not sure why we seem to feel relationships are tricky. They seem to be the hardest to figure out when people are not either willing to bend or participate in them. The reality is, it takes two to create one. There is no such thing as a one-sided relationship. If only one party participates then it is NOT a relationship. Or if there is disrespect within the connection, there is no relationship there either.

We often fail to get the point about relationships. Regardless of what type: friendship, romantic, parent-child, or business, a relationship can not exist without both parties being engaged in it. Don’t be shocked or surprised when someone walks away from it all or no longer desires to be involved in a conversation with you if you are not willing to participate. In order to do that we have to have feelings about the connection. If we want to truly know if we do have those feelings there has to be communication and interaction. Even more important, there must be mutual respect.

I personally hit a resolve when it has come to relationship connections.

  1. I will not be a part of a connection if there is a lack of respect. I can not respect someone if they do not respect me as a person.
  2. If there is no or very little response to me I do not consider someone in my life. It takes two to tango and if there is no initiation on the other party’s part, I will assume they do not desire me in their life.
  3. If someone is not willing to communicate and understand my position and my heart then there is no relationship in my world. I do that for others when they allow me to, speak to me kindly, and offer their friendship. Otherwise, there is nothing more to say.
  4. I will consider myself abandoned if there is no response to my initiation of conversation and connection. Life is too short to have one-sided conversations.
  5. I will consider myself abandoned if there is no heart-to-heart understanding or even an attempt at one.
  6. There is no such thing as “I love you but I don’t have the time to connect with you”. Sorry, love can be present but it can not be expressed without connection.
  7. I have boundaries in my life, everyone should. If they are continually crossed, I consider myself without you.

These might seem a bit harsh but, for me, they have to be true. You might have different ones, and that is ok. Our differences make us unique, but they don’t always make us friends.

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry

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The Disheartening Treatment of Women

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This is a message I have felt so compelled to share. Not everyone will like it but I can not help that. Please pardon the audio-speaking portion. For some reason, it came out lower than the beginning music and the app would not allow me to change it. You will need to just turn it up. Thank you!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry

JenineMarie.com

It Used to Be…

Something came over me today about how things “used to be” in this world. Sometimes we take for granted that “this is how it is now” and forget who we are or were. So things started flooding into my mind about how things used to be. I felt a little sad until I realized things can change for the better, always. So here is my list of “used to be” things :

It used to be when someone lied not only did they apologize when it hurt someone but they were expected to apologize. It’s called accountability.

It used to be people valued their position in their job so much that they treated those who worked for them with respect. They knew they would not be where they were but for those who worked hard to keep them there. It’s called integrity.

It used to be when we called someone they called us back, not leaving a text, a voicemail, an email, or an excuse. It’s called mature communication.

It used to be we helped someone when they were down and lifted them up. It’s called compassion.

It used to be when we reached out to someone they responded in love instead of ignoring our hearts. They genuinely wanted to help. It’s called responsibility.

It used to be people would right a wrong by being upfront and apologetic. It’s called honesty.

I’m sure I could go on with my “used to be” things but I will leave it open. It’s food for thought, right? When we were in kindergarten we shared our cookies with those who did not have any. Why can’t we share supplies and food with those who need it? When we were in kindergarten we didn’t understand “hoarding”. hmmm

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry

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Update on My New Course!

If you are a woman age 40 and over who is looking for a love relationship you will not want to miss my new upcoming course on how to attract that love relationship into your life! Stop attracting the same dysfunctional, narcissistic, unreliable relationship in different bodies! You deserve the best relationship ever. Even more, it is a journey as much as it is a course! You will have so many opportunities to learn about yourself, go through guided meditations, journal your heart and learn some of the best secrets in attraction! I can’t wait for you to begin!

Just a “Hello” video

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry

JenineMarie.com

Final Video Walking on the Beach Together, Transformation and Kundalini Energy

This is our final walk on the beach together in my video series! Don’t miss this one! We will be standing in our power, receiving some energy work, breathwork, and kundalini beginnings!

I wish you well in all of your new beginnings as your life pivots and changes. Please excuse my time frame for getting this completed. My life is pivoting too!

Please take a moment and subscribe to my YouTube channel while you are there and look forward to some new things as I begin to dive into course creation!

Love and light to you all!

I am loving you from here,

Jenine Marie

JenineMarie.com

What It’s Been Like to Feel the Loss of my Daughter (Sorry, this is not as uplifting)

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It’s been almost a year now since my Christina left this world. To say “it hurts to have her die” loses something in the translation. Yes, It hurts. I’m choosing to write this today because I am more broken. My real feelings will come out and that is my intention. I know all of the things that my faith has told me. Heck, others have told me too. These are things like, “she’s in a better place”, “she’s happier now”, and “she no longer feels any pain”. These are only some of the things I have heard and been “encouraged with” by those who just don’t understand. I know where my Christina is. Sometimes I feel her and sometimes I wish I could hug her when I do.

The hard reality is not the things that “she” is right now, it is where I am right now. You see, I am the one still here stuck in a human body. So therefore I am NOT in a better place. I am NOT happier now, and I feel the crushing feeling of my heart being torn up into 50,000 pieces and no one understands this. No one gets that it takes time to get used to a new normal. Therefore I am the one feeling the pain now. No one understands we never get over loving someone and that is a reality. Sometimes I want silence and sometimes I want someone to just sit and listen to me even if I repeat myself a thousand times. Sometimes I want to be heard even if I felt different or better the day before but today is harder. Sometimes I just need someone to take the time to show me I have a reason to be here even though my firstborn son and daughter are not.

This is no picnic and it sure is no game. I don’t need to be shown how little my business has produced. I am well aware of that. I don’t need to be told how unbalanced or out of sorts I am. God knows I can’t be anything else but myself. I sure don’t need anyone to turn their back on my tears because I have shed a million and I might shed a million more. When I do shed them, most of the time I want comfort, not confrontation. I’m sure everyone has an idea of how I should get my life back together. I’ve heard them all. Tell me, “Have you lost a child”? Because if you have not then don’t speak into my life about how it should be now. Let me spell it out, “YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND” because you don’t know.

Every single day is a challenge. I make plans to get out and get some things “done” and yet I am stuck. Sometimes I go and sometimes I don’t feel like even making that leap. And you know what? It’s ok. I don’t have to do anything “expected” of me. I don’t need that pressure. So please, don’t expect anything from me. Let me launch out as I am ready. There are times I want to dance, sing, and let my heart soar. Sometimes I meditate and listen to the silence inside me or the beat of my own heart. Then there are times it feels like a volcano lives inside of me and stuff comes rushing out in heart heaving tears and I wonder where they all come from. Even more, I wonder if they will ever stop.

If my grieving is inconvenient for you I won’t apologize. I have not wished this upon myself, nor do I ever wish it on you. It’s not my fault my daughter’s heart gave out. I carried that heart with me for many many years and I will carry her soul with me forever. Love does not just go away because someone died. Love stays and builds up so tight inside that it has to come bursting out some way. So it comes out with crushing tears, heartbreak, and extreme sadness. Sometimes I laugh. I just find something funny and laugh until I can’t breathe. It’s all the same release.

Whether you get it or not makes no difference. The main idea is don’t put more on me than I already have. There is only so much one person can take and I am at my limit. You see, I already lost, so losing those who want to just turn their backs on me won’t phase me one way or another. Just don’t heap more junk on me. I don’t need it nor want it.

The things I do need are compassion. Compassion does not have to understand, it just “stands with me”. I need love. Love covers all things and will blanket the days and nights that seem so hard to bear sometimes. I need faith. Even if I can’t muster up any faith for myself, have some for me. I need prayers. I believe prayers will be heard and acted upon by the great “I AM” and I will be in those hands. I need listening ears. Even if I repeat myself, even if I don’t make sense, even if I am angry, even if I hurt like I will burst, or if I want to just talk about memories that make me feel close to my son and daughter.

I have always been a determined person. I will get through this with or without anything. Whatever you do, don’t worry about me. I am stubborn and determined to stick out this life until I am 109 years old if that is God’s will for me. I’ll do it with tears, laughter, pain, upset, thriving or not. Some day I will soar again and it can’t come too soon for me. In the meantime, I am letting the process be just that: a process. If no one chooses to be good to me, I will be good to myself. If no one wants to hear my tears, I will cry with God. Everyone has a choice in life. Mine is to be as I am with no expectations whether anyone else joins me in this life or not.

Just Jenine Marie

Metaphysical Walk on the Beach Video #6: Getting Through the Darkness

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I hope you are enjoying this video series. I believe ONE more will be coming after this one. First, we have to come through the darkness part. If you feel inclined, please subscribe to my YouTube channel and pass on the video series! They are my gift to all of YOU!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry

JenineMarie.com

Come visit my forever-changing and transforming website! If you need a private session all of the information to connect with me will be there. Namaste!