I think I have a little baby bit of a rant. Ok, maybe more than that but I will try to just keep it real and honest. So, here it is: NO ONE gets to say what I think, what I feel, or what my life should be like. No one decides how long I live except God and me, and no one gets to decide if I am alright or if I am having a hard day. It all is what it is, and that is the way life is going for me. I spent a lifetime having other people tell me what I think. Seriously? Even if I said they were wrong they still never believed me.
Im DONE with that. People are just going to have to love me as I am, or they can just not love me at all. Im so very serious. Love does not go away because of what anyone else believes I think or feel. It all sounds stupid when I type it out. I am sitting here with a patch over my eye, the other one tearing from the computer light, and my heart feels so tired and half broken from all I have had to endure the last few years. But I got through cancer treatment with a pretty good attitude. I don’t care if anyone agrees with me. I care that GOD agrees with me and understands.
My heart is not broken; in fact, I feel a little numb. It’s one of those moments when the frustration got to the top of my head and the adrenaline is so crazy I feel like going outside and running around the block a few times. That still might not be enough! Yep, I’m still the same person who encourages others. I’m still the same minister I was 35 years ago, only maybe a little wiser than I was then. I just got sick of being spun around the mountain by those who think if they don’t get their way then something must be wrong with me.
Oh no honey, I carry my own stuff. Believe me, I have enough. I don’t need or want yours unless you are my client and right now I am taking a break to heal myself. I happen to be a good counselor/life coach and a good minister. If I were not, then God would take it from me. So, any comments in that regard, you can take them to God because God is the only one I have to ever answer to.
This is not a post to be mean. This is a post to be DONE.
Loving you from here,
Just Jenine Marie
Life Lessons by Jenine Marie 