Lately, I have noticed bruises pop up on my body seemingly out of nowhere. It’s been happening for more than a month now. Even where my arm has felt trauma from injections for a recent biopsy, the bruising has been more than I usually would have. I thought maybe I’ve lacked a vitamin or something, but I take them every day and eat pretty well.
Today, I was spending my morning meditative time just listening to music and talking to God. Then suddenly, really without thinking why, I wrapped my arms around myself and gave myself a huge hug. I stayed that way for awhile because it felt so comforting and peaceful.
The thoughts came to me; those higher ones that seem to come bubbling up out of nowhere. I am bruised. My body is showing me bruising because my heart is bruised. I’m an empath, and I have taken other people’s bruising all of my life. It has never mattered if it was directed at me or not but a lot of the time it has been directed at me. People act out of their own bruises and soul pain. An empath will suck it in like a sponge. The energy and emotion has to go somewhere, so sensitive people and empath’s will retain it and become the walking bruised.
So today, I released it all, gently. Because that is how things should always be for me: gentle. It’s how God wants it; gentle. Some people are born awakened to God. Why that is, I have no idea, but we are. When that happens we see things differently from the beginning. We see and notice other people’s “stuff”. We see and feel their pain. We notice their struggle. We experience their joy higher. We know their lies, even the ones to themselves. We sense their inner soul pain, and we soak in their bad behavior toward us like arrows that have no other place to go.
We receive spiritual messages from literally everything and we have to share them because we feel like we would explode if we don’t. It’s meant to be that way, we are made that way. We are a walking message, already opened, and revealed no matter where we go. We seem to be solemn at times, quiet, and unassuming. We are soaking things in and processing. Then other times we are outrageously joy filled and we have felt like we just touched the soul of heaven. No, it’s not bipolar, its a difficult gift. It’s meant to warn, to direct, to be on guard, to ignite passion, to bring profound understanding, and to bridge the gap between God and humanity.
If this is you, rejoice! Your battle has been hard. You have been taxed more than any one person ever should have. Life has seemed unfair because you have given more than you could ever imagine and yet you still take the sting from others stuff. It’s so you can point them the way to heal it. You feel there is no other choice, and there isn’t. You are one of life’s amazing gifts from God. You walk on earth, but it feels like the dirt is always murky thick mud because the struggle is real. Remember though, the lotus flower grows and blossoms in thick mud and it’s one of this earth’s most amazingly beautiful flowers. So are you!
Loving you from here,
Dr Rev Jenine Marie Howry