If it Was Real Love Would They Have Left?

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I listened on the phone to a woman who was sobbing as she expressed her fear and pain. I’m an empath, so I could feel the pain in my chest as she tried to settle down long enough to even talk. Her life had fallen apart in one instant. Little did she know, it had been falling apart for some time. She was just not informed of it. When it all finally hit the fan, her husband she had been married to all of her adult life had told her he was leaving her for another woman. In fact, he had been seeing the woman for awhile.

They had been together through raising children, buying a home, planning for retirement, and family vacations. They fought battles when the kids rebelled against them, prayed while they were sick, held one another through unexpected funerals and celebrated every joyous event. Now all of that became a blur as she vented her feelings to me with tears rolling down her cheeks. I had invited her out for breakfast the following day; her heart was so broken she could hardly fix herself meals.

I wondered how someone went from being involved in the life they built with another, to starting all over later in life. It was mentioned he stayed for the sake of the children. I think its a very noble reason to stay, don’t you? Giving children a good life is wonderful and they deserve the best from both parents. The only part the husband had left out was he was planning to leave without his wife’s knowledge. She was hit like a ton of bricks with the news.

Her children were all off living their adult lives, and her husband was packing his bags. On top of it all, the house would have to be sold during the divorce so she was going to have to leave the home she spent over 25 years putting together. She kept asking me why he could possibly do such a thing? I can’t say how this happened but what blurted out was, “If he truly loved you as a husband loves his wife, he never would leave.”

They had many years together, building and creating a family. I can’t completely believe he had no love for her at all. What I can say is someone who truly loves another might have moments of reconsideration during arguments or hard issues, but the idea of living without the other never really enters into the mind of one who loves without conditions. The woman continued to sob and tell her story. I realized it was himself he was not loving. His actions had very little to do with her or lack of love for her. It was a lack of love for himself that guided his decisions at that time.

It’s hard to understand this, but we reflect in our lives the feelings we have within ourselves. We display our inadequate feelings and wounds by the decisions we make a long the way. When our lives go unhealed, and wounds unattended to, we create a mixed up mess.

She made it through her ordeal. In fact, she did better than she ever imagined, just taking one step at a time. He, on the other hand was stuck in yet one more relationship he wanted out of, not realizing the person he had left was himself.

We do ourselves a great disservice by leaving our inner wounds unattended. This does mean we need to dig a bit into the past and let our voices express the pain and sorrow created through our interactions with others.  We owe it to ourselves and others to heal from the inside out. Otherwise we make decisions out of the lens of the holes in our hearts instead of making them how of wholeness. Make a decision today to heal the hurts from the inside out. Your life and those around you will thank you!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph. D

My Children are Blessings of God: Rewritten from March, 2005



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What is it about them that presses my buttons so much and can bring me such joy all at once? They are soldiers, spiritual warriors waging their battles with life just like it was from the beginning as they opened their eyes for the very first time and struggled to take that first breath.

They were so tiny and in need of every little thing to be done for them. So fragile and yet so vital to overcoming such odds since the beginning of their conception. Their gaze is illuminating, and little smiles can make the most complex heart melt into puddles, just like on the heaviest rainstorm of your imagination.

I never knew fully how they came to be who they are. I never really before took a second look. I only knew they came into being; they grew, demanded, and got what was wanted purely with the idea that they could not do for themselves, and so, therefore, they needed me. They looked up to me. I was the warrior queen and the protector of all universal hazards. I could ease the pain of a broken heart with one touch of ice cream, and suddenly this warrior queen they called “Mom” had brought about world peace and calmed the stormy seas.

Each one has delivered to me a message beyond my comprehension. Each one has given unselfishly of themselves and asked nothing except provision and protection. They are Gods and Goddesses in their own right, and each has created exactly what was supposed to be.

My son Jayson David has the strength of a warrior king. He knew and knows the value of standing up for what we believe in. He did it so eagerly and with such grace. He never questioned the loss of mortality in this lifetime. He only used the weapon of his determination to get where he desired to be. He came against all odds and many persecutions to be the man he was, and in spirit, still is. His laugh was contagious, and a person could not help but be “light” in his presence. He knew the scorn of his peers, yet he treads on, even if it meant death, for the end of the mortal body was much better a pill to swallow than the death of the soul. He brought “soul” to this planet, and with a soul, he still lingers to witness the injustice that took his life. He would give the shirt off his back to a friend in need, and if they asked, he would willingly give his pants too. That was Jayson David; that was his way.

Christina Marie is a willful young lady with eyes as deep as muddy pools. Her soul carries the stripes of Christ from a very young age. She bears anger in her spirit yet tempers it with humor and tenacity to get where she desires to go. No one comes against her and wins. She is a warrior queen, and she sets her mark on those that endeavor to take the life from her. She stands as tall as the mighty oak but bends softly to experience the tenderness of a small puppy she fondly calls “Blue.” Her heart is strong but can be broken so easily. She shows the battle scars of what life has done to her, yet the victories of how she overcame all the advancements of society she wears as her crown. She is a messenger of Goddess and takes no less than the best that life can give. She scorns all who would steal from her and yet understands their weakness to take that which is not for them to take. She is Christina Marie; she knows the value of standing in her powerful being, and because she is WHO she is, no one will attempt any longer to overpower her.

Sherry Lynn is sweet and kind. Her gentle innocence graces the room the minute she walks into it. Her light is soft and kind. She gives with no limits to those who are hurting and in need of nurture. She loves deeply and fully accepts all who come her way. She is Goddess personified, and her beautiful flashing blue eyes are the rays of hope to all who are lucky enough to be included in her living space. She warms the weary soul and holds her hands out to all who need to be lifted. She is wise beyond her years and her tears have watered many a garden which has sprouted new growth and continues to do so everywhere she goes.

Keith Charles is quiet and deep. He is soulful and righteous, along with talented and charming. He holds the gifts of artistic flair as a breastplate against the world of academics. He is not mainstream; he is the main line. He knows the value of a great hug, yet the tender soul that gives his love through his art still seeks them for himself whenever he is able. He is focused on the world around him with a heart that touches the animal kingdom. He is there for them, nurtures their being, and brings humor to humanity. He is often afraid but never shows it. He is brave and a warrior of peace upon the planet. He wages no war, only manifesting peace with the air of innocent dignity. He grows as the willow, constantly bending and riding with the tides of the earth.

Sarah Jenine laps up life for all it is worth. She takes in everything that is good and holds it dear and close to herself. She quietly journeys the winds of time and steadily steers her craft through the torrential storms. She thirsts for knowledge and writes about her life and her experience. She dreams of who she is and where she desires to go. She is an angel of hope to those who pass her way and teaches the discipline of academic achievement, and finds in it, her bliss. She is blessed to be called the “giver of life,” as her name states that she is, for she gives life to all who cross her path by the silent prayers she deeply keeps to herself like a treasure waiting to be someday opened. She alone holds the key to this box. She alone has held tightly the dreams, prayers, and visions of better days to come. Her optimism is complete in the greenness of her eyes, for she fruitfully grows everything she plants.

They are my life and my salvation. They who have looked to me for life and protection are the treasures and the gifts of many lifetimes, bringing their grace to me from sunrise to sunset. I have stood tall and often weak before them. They have seen, and they have learned. Each one is a piece of my soul and a part of the story I tell.
Their eyes were always watching. Their hearts were always learning, and now they are my heroes, my breath, and my existence. They hold the keys to my spirit and spill out the wisdom of life through their actions, dreams, and struggles.

Thank you, dear ones, for coming into my life and for choosing me among all women to be the one to bring you forth during this lifetime. Your teachings have been so valuable to me. Your love has been my lifesaver.

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

**Edited and re-written from March of 2005, copyright Jenine Marie Howry

Signs From Crossed Over Loved Ones

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As a mother who had her son pass over when he was age 20, I’ve been so curious about the life that we call death here on earth. After my Jayson crossed over, I stopped believing in death, although we often call it that. I’m not sure “crossed over” is a good way to describe when someone leaves their body. I have wondered where we cross over to?

As Jesus explained, there is no actual death, just a crossing over to a new phase of life; being born again into a new state of being. Eternity is not for a few, but everyone. We were initially created as eternal beings in spirit. This remains the truth regardless of what our religious boxes want to teach us. I know my son still lives; I have seen the proof of this through signs. No, it is not an illusion, and it is not my wishful thinking or a coincidence.

Not long ago, I felt a distance from my son. I get that way now and then. I like to be reassured he is still with me. I know there will never be a disconnection in my heart because love can never be divided or separated. God made sure of this. Yet, I like to see some evidence. It makes my heart beat a bit faster to know I am supported, loved, and surrounded by my crossed-over loved ones.

So, I set up a sign by speaking out loud about what I would like my son to bring to me. I have always been partial to dragonflies, so that is what I asked him for; dragonflies. I don’t see them very often around where I live, so this would be a unique sign for me.

One day I came out of the bedroom, and my cat was doing crazy out in the living area! Upon the wall, high near the ceiling, was a huge dragonfly! I thought to myself, “Thank you, Jayson, and thank you, God!” It was not the last one for me to see. I had to take a long trip to my doctor’s office, and I had some apprehension about the long drive back and forth. I jumped into the car with my lunch and GPS to find the best route for the day. The moment I got into the car, a big dragonfly came flying up to the driver’s side of the windshield and fluttered there for a few moments. I could not help but smile because I knew it was from my dear son, showing me he was with me!

I know this all might sound nuts to some people but passed over loved ones are always with me in my life. They show me when I ask them to and usually not too often when I don’t ask. Now and then, I get a surprise, and something out of the blue will happen for me, to make me smile! Our love for those who spent lives with us will never die; why should we believe they have left us? Love is love in every sense of the word. After all, God is love, and God will never leave. In my world, so it is with our loved ones. They love connecting with us, and they sure don’t want it to be a spooky experience but a delightful one!

Experiment with your loved ones and ask for a sign from them! You will be surprised at what you might see in the days following!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

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Karma Collective: Expressive Clothing and Jewelry

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Recently I discovered a company called Karma Collective. I LOVE this company because the products sold express my beliefs and values. Equally important to me, their products are good value buys! I love a good buy, don’t you? I loved the idea of the company so much I became one of their brand ambassadors! I love this because it gives me the scoop on what is new and allows me to give customers a nice discount! Here is a recent video I have created wearing one of their tee’s.

If you love some of the items in the online store and would like to make a purchase with a discount, you can use my code JENINEH-KC15 for 15% off your purchase! Hurry because the inventory sells out FAST!

Discover messages that your soul identifies with! Here is the link to the Karma Collective online store! Come share the good Karma!

Karma Collective

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

Awakening

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“On a dream we were born,

Upon which we ride.

Guiding stars of the morning,

A light inside.”

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“From the dusk to the dawn,

We embrace each other’s hearts.

When we read between the lines,

We have overcome the dark.”

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“Angels wings uplifting us,

Though seldom seen.

Whisperings are beckoning

Just like a dream.”

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“From the dusk to the dawn,

We embrace each other’s hearts.

When we read between the lines,

We have overcome the dark.”

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“From the dream we awaken

To greet the Light.

Lifting ourselves from slumber,

We come alive.”

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“From the dusk to the dawn,

We embrace each other’s hearts.

When we read between the lines,

We have overcome the dark… “

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

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Are YOU an Empath? This is What it is Like

I want to start off by saying this is very daring for me. It’s like an empath coming out party! So many of us have heightened senses and yet are told there is something WRONG with us instead of seeing what is completely RIGHT with us!

Learning to sail our ship through life as an empath is not an easy journey but it is one that is worth it! If you have been thinking you might be an empath, maybe it is time to get real with what you feel, think, and sense? Maybe it is time to accept and love the person you are with all of your beautiful sensations?

You can use your empath responses in good ways to give yourself knowledge of situations, sense danger more accurately, and embrace that intuitive person you are! Don’t allow anyone to cause you to feel flawed because you feel and sense things more than others do! You are a gift to this age and I want you to feel cozy in your own skin!

Contrary to many beliefs, being an empath is not something to heal from, but a gift to embrace and use as an intuitive compass. I am sharing my experiences and feelings as an empath so others can understand what it is like to be born one! Believe me, it’s OK! YOU are ok! So, let’s discuss it. Finding others who are like you will help you to embrace the beauty of who you are and to stop allowing others in who are continually trying to change you! What you can do instead is learn self acceptance and how to determine when your feelings are due to others outside of you or due to your own.

Remember, make it a beautiful journey!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

Holy Moments of Creation: Manifestation Video

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Get Some Attraction Satisfaction!

Whatever you can dream of, you can create in reality. Manifesting dreams and desires is so much fun! We are powerful creators just like the God who created us! Gratitude is one of the most powerful feelings as a part of love. Before you can manifest anything, you need to be grateful for what you have and for what you are creating in your life.

Remember your powers. They are gratitude, forgiveness, love, mercy, grace, and charity (sowing and reaping). Embody these things and all else is easy. We have a God who WANTS us to be fruitful and multiply. I have no idea why so many feel guilty about creating in life, or that it is wrong. When done so with an honest heartfelt intention, creating is what life is all about.

We are always creating. All any of us need to do is decide what we want to create instead of leaving things to chance. Here is a guided meditation video (no music) for manifesting and creating your dreams and visions. I hope you enjoy it often! Make your creation REAL and post in the comments area what you would like to manifest in your life! Then get to it! (I’m going to post mine in the comments area!)

May your dreams definitely come true!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

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How to Manifest Through Love and Desire!!


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If you are passionate about manifesting new things in your life, then this is for YOU! I am so passionate about this video teaching on how to manifest through love and desire! I want you to feel the full passion of what you desire to create in your life and for your life! If you ever have questions please let me know by commenting below or you can give me a suggestion on what you would like to hear about regarding the law of attraction, universal law, and manifesting in life. You are so much bigger than you give yourself credit for. I want you to dream big and bold because that’s what you are, and who you are!

Law of Attraction, Universal Law, Manifesting, Love, Desire

I am loving you from here!

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

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Avon’s Night Magic Perfumed Skin Softener

We all love certain products for particular reasons. Sometimes they are just plain effective, and that is a great reason! We also love them for the memories and comfort they bring. Sometimes we are just product loyal! It’s ALL good! I love this product by Avon for all of the reasons I mentioned!

I loved when my grandmother, aunts and mother gathered around with the Avon lady and laughed while they tried Avon’s latest products. Don’t you love how women tend to bond over laughter and sharing! We are a powerful bunch!

This very gently scented soft cream is amazing just to freshen up or bring some great scented moisture to the skin! It’s never overbearing. You can wear it if you are sensitive to scents or if you don’t want something that keeps you awake at night.

It leaves a nice silky feel to the skin that will last all day. People always ask me what scent I am wearing and where I got it! The same cream comes in other scents as well. You can check them out and other Avon products on my Avon site at:

Jenine Marie- Night Magic

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Give this beautiful scent a try and seek out other Avon products! Enjoy some of the traditions you can bring into your life as well!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

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Basic Foundations of Life Series

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

I would like to welcome you to my basic foundations of life series. This came about during a time of much confusion for me, as to where my life is going and what life might look like in the phase I am finding myself in.

Wisdom led me to go back to some foundations. I am teaching them a bit differently than I ever have before. Our basic foundations in life are:

God

Marriage/Partnership

Family

These are the areas I will be exploring with you over the next few videos and blog posts. For some reason we have the idea that political values, government, or a hierarchy of leadership is supposed to be what we look to for our guidance first. This is not so. I would like to bring you back to the foundations of life and how the branches are supposed to begin from the roots of our foundation and then spread out to other forms. The additional forms from what we create through God, Marriage, Family, might be community, organizations and other forms of leadership. Our personal leadership starts with ourselves and our relationship with our Creator. Step into the divine! Here is a video to start you off!

Loving you from here,

Dr. Rev. Jenine Marie Howry, Ph.D.

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